Tired, crabby and hungry...what a lovely combination

Crabby, crabby today. I know why, but I won't give too much detail other than it's, at the risk of being cliche, that time of the month. I get easily irked, can cry over the weirdest things and the worst part, when trying to make a healthy, lifestyle change...I feel the need to eat...EVERYTHING! I would love to run to cub and get a couple of pints of Hagen Daaz coffee or butter pecan ice cream, or maybe hit up byerly's for a sara lee coffee cake that I can house in one sitting. That is how scary my food issues have become (or how they really have always been). I know which stores regularly carry my binge foods and I know which ones do not ever carry them.
I will deny that urge. I know that it isn't conducive to success in the long run to deprive myself, but I also know that once I sit down with a bag of chips and some dip I cannot stop until both are gone...licked clean basically. Really embarrassing confession time: I will admit that I will pour bottom-of-the-bag chip crumbs into the dip container and use my fingers to finish off both...that felt both freeing and scary to admit. Scarier still, I have a ton more of those little food secrets....
I am still learning, still trying to get a concrete idea of what my triggers are and what times of day I am most vulnerable. Until I know for sure what gets me, I will not buy those favorites. I certainly still allow myself dessert, salty treats and filling meals, but I am working on moderation and finding healthier options of these foods. It is definitely a struggle for me, ESPECIALLY when I have the ol' period. So tonight, I will clean up the emotional debris of my pity party and get a good night's sleep. Good night all and thanks for reading!