TOTALLY CONFUSED! Happily confused, but confused. So I had a tough week last week. As in, I just wanted to eat crap (see last post). A lot of times when I want to eat crap and I am feeling strong, well then, I will just NOT EAT the crap. On the other hand, if I am not feeling strong, well then, I will just EAT the crap. It was the latter that occurred (imagine me hanging my head in shame). So knowing this and preparing myself for a gain on the scale this morning, just imagine the shock and awe when the scale showed a loss?! I got off the scale, let it recalibrate, and stepped on again. Yep, no error, I had lost weight. This is so weird. Granted, I did manage to stifle a full-on binge, so maybe that is what helped, but I have another theory....So, I am thinking, and I am a weirdo I know, that my body was telling me "Ok megs, I am going to give you a little shock. I am going to let you eat some junky food and still flush some fat so you have a loss, BUUUUUT, I am just going to do it one time. I want you to remember how good it feels to lose and not gain, but we can't make this a habit...mmm'kay? The crap-food-fest cannot continue, but it is okay to give yourself a treat and I will still keep on keeping on". That's what I think anyhooters. Granted, this is the same girl who used to think that there were small people with buckets in her bladder (though I didn't know that there was a "bladder" at the time) who would tip the buckets when they started to get full therefore causing me to pee. Yep, you read that right...I am a creep and I started young. Regardless I am going with the idea that my body is trying to work with me this time. Any happy surprises for anyone else out there from last week? Ang, I know you had a great time in Florida and of course, Alison, the arrival of those amazing boys!! Who else?? Come on, you know you wanna share. Especially after I just shared the bladder-men story.
BTW - just tried the new recipe fat-free greek yogurt from Yoplait and it is pretty dang good! (tried to post a pic, but it will only show up on the top of the blog and I cannot for the life of me get it to move...Bex any ideas?)
Monday, February 28, 2011
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Changing it up!
Okay, so the winter "doldrums" have really set in. I get the faintest scent of warm weather, start to breathe deeply and then KAPOW! it's gone! I am SAD (as in seasonal affective disorder ..clever huh, or maybe just a bit lame). So when the blues hit this also means I eat...a lot..and junkily. I am pretty sure that junkily is not a word, but I said it out loud and it made me giggle so I am going with it.
Hey! Gummy bears, why don't you let me eat you, big bowl of ice cream get your cold, creamy goodness over here, McDonald's I would like some of you! (uh, yeah, I went to McD's and ate their delicious, if questionable, beef covered in cheese delights and followed them with deep-fried potato sticks). Yes, yes, I did just script out my conversations I have with food...
By describing the cheeseburgers and fries like that makes me feel a little less guilt about succumbing to the temptation and it allows me to admit that I did it. Okay, yes, I know that I shouldn't be depriving myself of cravings, but I know that I wasn't really craving McDonald's, it was just easy and would be cheap and would mean that I wouldn't have to get out of my car. THAT IS SO RIDICULOUS!! I could pretend that it was cold outside so drive-thru was the only way to go, but we all know that is just a huge load of bunk...aaaaand now I feel like a huge load.
So, knowing that I am excusing and rationalizing the drive-thru excursion I am trying to get back into gear by admitting my little (big) slip to more than just myself.
Another thing I did was change my blog design...sooooo springish! For a girl who loves winter and cold weather (helps keep the drenching sweat at bay) it doesn't mean that I am finding the a**-load of snow refreshing and wonderful. I am downright FED UP with it! So I'm thinking spring and getting back on track and maybe I will slash my tires so I the chances of making it through the drive-thru are greatly reduced :)
Thanks for reading dudes!
Hey! Gummy bears, why don't you let me eat you, big bowl of ice cream get your cold, creamy goodness over here, McDonald's I would like some of you! (uh, yeah, I went to McD's and ate their delicious, if questionable, beef covered in cheese delights and followed them with deep-fried potato sticks). Yes, yes, I did just script out my conversations I have with food...
By describing the cheeseburgers and fries like that makes me feel a little less guilt about succumbing to the temptation and it allows me to admit that I did it. Okay, yes, I know that I shouldn't be depriving myself of cravings, but I know that I wasn't really craving McDonald's, it was just easy and would be cheap and would mean that I wouldn't have to get out of my car. THAT IS SO RIDICULOUS!! I could pretend that it was cold outside so drive-thru was the only way to go, but we all know that is just a huge load of bunk...aaaaand now I feel like a huge load.
So, knowing that I am excusing and rationalizing the drive-thru excursion I am trying to get back into gear by admitting my little (big) slip to more than just myself.
Another thing I did was change my blog design...sooooo springish! For a girl who loves winter and cold weather (helps keep the drenching sweat at bay) it doesn't mean that I am finding the a**-load of snow refreshing and wonderful. I am downright FED UP with it! So I'm thinking spring and getting back on track and maybe I will slash my tires so I the chances of making it through the drive-thru are greatly reduced :)
Thanks for reading dudes!
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Ughh, i'm siiiiick
I'm sick! Not just a little cough and runny nose (which yes, I know, still means you're sick, buuuut...I mean nasty SICK) gross, stomach-gurgling, rancid burping, joint-aching sick.
Yes, I know it sounds like I am complaining, but really I am just telling it like it is. I feel like someone took one of those mallets a person uses to test their strength at the county fair and tested it on me....on my head, thereby compressing all my joints so it feels like I may have gotten about 6 inches shorter. Even my knuckles hurt, making this post a slow-going affair.
Why am I writing then you ask? Well, because when I am not feeling well, then any idea of trying to eat well goes right out the window. I just want to lay down and drink diet soda (the clear varieties of course) and when my stomach starts to feel up to it I want to devour carbs (such as saltines and toast). Now this doesn't sound so bad, but 5 saltines are worth 2 points. I don't stop at 5, I can finish off more than a couple of sleeves during the recovery period...equaling about 25-30 points (I am totally just shooting from the cuff with those calculations because I dread moving from this place on the couch trying to stretch out the joints). That sure doesn't make for a balanced meal at any time of the day and trying to get the body to adjust to real food takes a bit of work and who wants to do work?
So by writing this, it's giving me a reminder that in order to feel better I might want to think about what "sick" foods I eat and tweak it. Tthe experiment begins...just had some lettuce, carrots and a small amount of egg whites...we will see how that sits, but I already feel better because I know the proteins and veggies at least give me a little bit of a jumpstart. So maybe I am just talking myself into feeling better, but if eating a little better while I am sick actually helps me mentally feel better, then that has to be a good thing right?
Anyone have any good sick foods or feel-good, low-key activities?
Yes, I know it sounds like I am complaining, but really I am just telling it like it is. I feel like someone took one of those mallets a person uses to test their strength at the county fair and tested it on me....on my head, thereby compressing all my joints so it feels like I may have gotten about 6 inches shorter. Even my knuckles hurt, making this post a slow-going affair.
Why am I writing then you ask? Well, because when I am not feeling well, then any idea of trying to eat well goes right out the window. I just want to lay down and drink diet soda (the clear varieties of course) and when my stomach starts to feel up to it I want to devour carbs (such as saltines and toast). Now this doesn't sound so bad, but 5 saltines are worth 2 points. I don't stop at 5, I can finish off more than a couple of sleeves during the recovery period...equaling about 25-30 points (I am totally just shooting from the cuff with those calculations because I dread moving from this place on the couch trying to stretch out the joints). That sure doesn't make for a balanced meal at any time of the day and trying to get the body to adjust to real food takes a bit of work and who wants to do work?
So by writing this, it's giving me a reminder that in order to feel better I might want to think about what "sick" foods I eat and tweak it. Tthe experiment begins...just had some lettuce, carrots and a small amount of egg whites...we will see how that sits, but I already feel better because I know the proteins and veggies at least give me a little bit of a jumpstart. So maybe I am just talking myself into feeling better, but if eating a little better while I am sick actually helps me mentally feel better, then that has to be a good thing right?
Anyone have any good sick foods or feel-good, low-key activities?
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
Don't know what to say...
I'm embarrassed...I am having trouble keeping within my daily (and weekly) points this week. I am not exactly sure what my trigger is, but my willpower has gone right out the window and I am having trouble reeling myself back into a place of control.
Basically I need help...I reached out to a friend (thanks Anne) when I was feeling a big-time binge coming on and was able to curb it, but my portions have ballooned and I am eating so fast that I am not letting myself get full.
HELP!! Any words of advice out there? Or activities I can do that will keep my mind off food?
Right now I am going to go take a bath and focus on relaxing to get a good night's sleep.
Seriously though, I need help
Basically I need help...I reached out to a friend (thanks Anne) when I was feeling a big-time binge coming on and was able to curb it, but my portions have ballooned and I am eating so fast that I am not letting myself get full.
HELP!! Any words of advice out there? Or activities I can do that will keep my mind off food?
Right now I am going to go take a bath and focus on relaxing to get a good night's sleep.
Seriously though, I need help
Sunday, February 6, 2011
I love dairy
I mean it. I LOVE cheese, ice cream, creamer, even milk! I could eat it 24 hours a day, 365 days a year and not have to eat anything else. Okay, yes, that was a bit dramatic and very much an exaggeration, but I think it got the point across that I thoroughly enjoy dairy products. My waistline, butt and back fat proves that dairy may not like me. My stomach and intestines...yeah, they have a bit of a love/hate relationship with it. Neither one of these issues really stops me from consuming mass amounts of it on a daily basis. Until now...I have cut back. My gastrointestinal system thanks me for sure. So to get in my daily dairy treats I have found some healthier options, as one who is trying to do WW successfully tends to have to do.
One of these options I just picked up on my last Cub run. Laughing Cow Chipotle & Queso Fresco light cheese wedges. Though any food that can spoil but does not need to be refrigerated makes me a bit weary I decided to try it out. I didn't like the swiss flavored wedges last time I tried it, but this sounded like a delicious option. I knew that eating a wedge of semi-soft cheese for a snack really wouldn't do it for me so I pick up some melba toast snacks (sesame) that are 1 point for 4 (or in my case 3pts for 8 rounds). I spread the equivalent of 1 LC wedge on the 8 rounds and the results....DELICIOUS! It even filled me up and for that I will be forever grateful! I am so going to try the other triangle varieties in the round box (I am put off by the word "wedge") and see what I can come up with......also, melba toasts snacks come in MANY different flavors so I can even do experimenting. I bore easily of the same food day after flipping day so this is right up my alley.
Any certain go to snack for you guys out there? Wanna share? Sarah you should post that recipe with the tomato spread on here. It looks really good!
One of these options I just picked up on my last Cub run. Laughing Cow Chipotle & Queso Fresco light cheese wedges. Though any food that can spoil but does not need to be refrigerated makes me a bit weary I decided to try it out. I didn't like the swiss flavored wedges last time I tried it, but this sounded like a delicious option. I knew that eating a wedge of semi-soft cheese for a snack really wouldn't do it for me so I pick up some melba toast snacks (sesame) that are 1 point for 4 (or in my case 3pts for 8 rounds). I spread the equivalent of 1 LC wedge on the 8 rounds and the results....DELICIOUS! It even filled me up and for that I will be forever grateful! I am so going to try the other triangle varieties in the round box (I am put off by the word "wedge") and see what I can come up with......also, melba toasts snacks come in MANY different flavors so I can even do experimenting. I bore easily of the same food day after flipping day so this is right up my alley.
Any certain go to snack for you guys out there? Wanna share? Sarah you should post that recipe with the tomato spread on here. It looks really good!
Friday, February 4, 2011
Connected
Woot Woot! We have the internet again...for some that is a nice convenience...for me, a lifeline!
It has been an interesting week and few days. Jeremy and I have moved to Shakopee, my commute is 15 minutes shorter and I have christened the new, bigger kitchen with the first home-cooked meal.
I have also realized just how stressed I let myself get in situations. Moving day was made significantly easier with all of the wonderful help we had, but yet I still couldn't shake my feeling of things being out of my control and then I shut down a bit. I find that I cannot stand this aspect of my personality. If I can't run things at my pace and in my way (which is usually sloowwww) then I feel inadequate and can't quite get things together emotionally. It's weird and yet ANOTHER aspect of my life that I need to "work" on. THEN, Sunday, the people were gone and the apartment was slowly becoming a home (MUCHO thanks to Jeremy) I became sad. I cried in fact. I love being surrounded by friends and family, but at the same time I get overwhelmed...I would prefer to be surrounded by friends and family and be able to live in the moment and truly enjoy it for what it is, which is, good, good times. Nope, I have to future trip and worry about things that I have no control over and predict how everything is going to play out. Usually the situation never turns out the way I have figured it would ( that's a good thing because I tend toward the negative) and all the worrying was for naught.
So silly and completely unnecessary! So now I am trying to remember to take deep breaths, count to 10 and remember that if I live in the future I won't enjoy the present. Corny enough for ya? mmm corn...
Now I have had all of that on my mind and it feels good to get it out though it was a bit rambly. On a positive note, Jeremy and I have been doing really well with counting our points and remembering portion control (half-hearted yay for measuring cups). I made a WW-inspired Chicken Parmigiana (see recipe link below) last night and it was reasonably low in points and delicious. Granted Jeremy told me that he thought he might choke on the chicken. Why, you ask, was he worried about choking on the chicken? I was also wondering so ask him I did and his response ... "the chicken is really chewy, as in dry"... ummmmm...0kay... turns out I should have just left his first comment alone!
There were homemade brownies at work that I also managed to avoid. Avoided, even with all of my coworkers raving about how delicious they were and going back for seconds. That was tough, but now I feel proud that I was able to maintain my will-power for, count 'em, 8 hours! Aww yeah BABY! It probably helps that I walked past a reflective surface and got a good glimpse of my butt in scrubs: WIDE AND FLAT complete with saddle-baaaaags! That will put anyone off brownies for a few hours.
Now to get through the weekend while hanging on for dear life to that dang WW wagon...ugh
Thanks for reading! And Sarah, thanks for the smoothie recipes, complete with morbid names!
Delicious recipe for Chicken Parmigiana from WW recipes - made a couple of tweaks such as fresh tomatoes and onions to the sauce and using italian seasoned panko bread crumbs...I also bake the coated chicken in the oven and then add the sauce and cheese and bake a little longer...eliminates the need for any oil for the skillet. Also I just use two chicken breasts and cut the measurements accordingly.
http://www.weightwatchers.com/util/prt/recipe.aspx?Type=1&RecipeID=68311
It has been an interesting week and few days. Jeremy and I have moved to Shakopee, my commute is 15 minutes shorter and I have christened the new, bigger kitchen with the first home-cooked meal.
I have also realized just how stressed I let myself get in situations. Moving day was made significantly easier with all of the wonderful help we had, but yet I still couldn't shake my feeling of things being out of my control and then I shut down a bit. I find that I cannot stand this aspect of my personality. If I can't run things at my pace and in my way (which is usually sloowwww) then I feel inadequate and can't quite get things together emotionally. It's weird and yet ANOTHER aspect of my life that I need to "work" on. THEN, Sunday, the people were gone and the apartment was slowly becoming a home (MUCHO thanks to Jeremy) I became sad. I cried in fact. I love being surrounded by friends and family, but at the same time I get overwhelmed...I would prefer to be surrounded by friends and family and be able to live in the moment and truly enjoy it for what it is, which is, good, good times. Nope, I have to future trip and worry about things that I have no control over and predict how everything is going to play out. Usually the situation never turns out the way I have figured it would ( that's a good thing because I tend toward the negative) and all the worrying was for naught.
So silly and completely unnecessary! So now I am trying to remember to take deep breaths, count to 10 and remember that if I live in the future I won't enjoy the present. Corny enough for ya? mmm corn...
Now I have had all of that on my mind and it feels good to get it out though it was a bit rambly. On a positive note, Jeremy and I have been doing really well with counting our points and remembering portion control (half-hearted yay for measuring cups). I made a WW-inspired Chicken Parmigiana (see recipe link below) last night and it was reasonably low in points and delicious. Granted Jeremy told me that he thought he might choke on the chicken. Why, you ask, was he worried about choking on the chicken? I was also wondering so ask him I did and his response ... "the chicken is really chewy, as in dry"... ummmmm...0kay... turns out I should have just left his first comment alone!
There were homemade brownies at work that I also managed to avoid. Avoided, even with all of my coworkers raving about how delicious they were and going back for seconds. That was tough, but now I feel proud that I was able to maintain my will-power for, count 'em, 8 hours! Aww yeah BABY! It probably helps that I walked past a reflective surface and got a good glimpse of my butt in scrubs: WIDE AND FLAT complete with saddle-baaaaags! That will put anyone off brownies for a few hours.
Now to get through the weekend while hanging on for dear life to that dang WW wagon...ugh
Thanks for reading! And Sarah, thanks for the smoothie recipes, complete with morbid names!
Delicious recipe for Chicken Parmigiana from WW recipes - made a couple of tweaks such as fresh tomatoes and onions to the sauce and using italian seasoned panko bread crumbs...I also bake the coated chicken in the oven and then add the sauce and cheese and bake a little longer...eliminates the need for any oil for the skillet. Also I just use two chicken breasts and cut the measurements accordingly.
http://www.weightwatchers.com/util/prt/recipe.aspx?Type=1&RecipeID=68311
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)